Redemption

Tarot Cards

2010-10-23T23:21:48Z

I just picked up the Dark Angels Tarot. Next, I'm ordering Tarot of the Angels by the same company and The Vampire Tarot of the Eternal Night Kit. I've gotta say, the Dark Angels Tarot is *very* dark. The more I look at it, the heavier it weighs on me mentally. It's a really nice deck, though, it kind of defies traditional reading. I've always been the type to read by memorization and logic. This deck, I think, is going to help me get out of that. One thing, though, that this deck has done for me, so far, is helped me to narrow my focus on my altar theme. I've decided I'm sticking to angelic symbology. I've also decided I *am* going to invest in one of the more expensive chalices I like so much. So, anyway, at this point, I guess it's safe to say I'm back to collecting Tarot decks again.

Scientists discover leviathan 'monster' whale confirms Bible

2010-10-23T02:29:31Z

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Leviathan

2010-10-23T02:23:01Z

Leviathan

Leviathan (Hebrew for "Twisted; coiled") was a Biblical sea monster referred to in the Old Testament (Psalm 74:13-14; Job 41; Isaiah 27:1). The word leviathan has become synonymous with any large sea monster or creature. In the novel Moby-Dick it refers to great whales, and in Modern Hebrew, it means simply "whale".

Judaism

Leviathan, Behemoth and Ziz

According to legend, Leviathan originally had a mate, Taninim (Hebrew for "sea monster, crocodile or large snake"). God created a male and female Leviathan, then killed the female, for if the Leviathans were to procreate the world could not stand before them.

The Leviathan was a monstrous fish created on the fifth day of Creation. The Leviathan will be slain and its flesh served as a feast to the righteous in [the] Time to Come, and its skin used to cover the tent where the banquet will take place."
There is another religious hymn recited on the festival of Shavuot (celebrating the giving of the Torah), known as Akdamut, wherein it says: "...The sport with the Leviathanand the ox (Behemoth)...When they will interlock with one another and engage in combat, with his horns the Behemoth will gore with strength, the fish [Leviathan] will leap to meet him with his fins, with power. Their Creator will approach them with his mighty sword [and slay them
both]." Thus, "from the beautiful skin of the Leviathan, God will construct canopies to shelter the righteous, who will eat the meat of the Behemoth [ox] and the Leviathan amid great joy and merriment, at a huge banquet that will be given for them." Some rabbinical commentators say these accounts are allegorical (Artscroll siddur, p. 719), or symbolic of the end of conflict.
In a legend recorded in the Midrash called Pirke de-Rabbi Eliezer it is stated that the whale which swallowed Jonah narrowly avoided being eaten by the Leviathan, which generally eats one whale each day. In a hymn by Kalir, the Leviathan is a serpent that surrounds the earth and has its tail in its mouth, like the GreekOuroboros and the Nordic Midgard Serpent. Legend has it that in the banquet after the end of conflict, the carcass of the leviathan will be served as a meal, along with the behemoth and the ziz.

Leviathan may also be interpreted as the sea itself, with its counterparts behemoth being the land and ziz being the air and space. Some scholars have interpreted Leviathan, and other references to the sea in the Old Testament, as highly metaphorical references to seafaring marauders who once terrorized the Kingdom of Israel. Others liken the mention to Tiamat and other similar monsters who represented the sea as a foe to the gods in myths of nearby cultures.

The Biblical references to Leviathan appear to have evolved from the Canaanite Baal cycle involving a confrontation between Hadad (Baal) and a seven headed sea monster named Lotan. Lotan is the Ugaritic orthograph for Hebrew Leviathan. Hadad defeats him. Biblical references also resemble the Babylonian creation epic Enûma Elish in which the storm god Marduk slays his mother, the sea monster and goddess of chaos and creation Tiamat and creates the earth and sky from the two halves of her corpse.

Leviathan in rabbinic literature

Creation of Leviathan According to a midrash, the leviathan was created on the fifth day (Yalkut, Gen. 12). Originally God produced a male and a female leviathan, but lest in multiplying the species should destroy the world, He slew the female, reserving her flesh for the banquet that will be given to the righteous on the advent of theMessiah (B. B. 74a).

Size
The enormous size of the leviathan is thus illustrated by R. Johanan, from whom proceeded nearly all the haggadot concerning this monster: "Once we went in a ship and saw a fish which put his head out of the water. He had horns upon which was written: 'I am one of the meanest creatures that inhabit the sea. I am three hundred miles in length, and enter this
day into the jaws of the leviathan'" (B. B. l.c.). When the leviathan is hungry, reports R. Dimi in the name of R. Johanan, he sends forth from his mouth a heat so great as to make all the waters of the deep boil, and if he would put his head into paradise no living creature could endure the odor of him (ib.). His abode is the Mediterranean Sea; and the waters of the Jordan fall into his mouth (Bek. 55b; B. B. l.c.).

The body of the leviathan, especially his eyes, possesses great illuminating power. This was the opinion of R. Eliezer, who, in the course of a voyage in company with R. Joshua, explained to the latter, when frightened by the sudden appearance of a brilliant light, that it probably proceeded from the eyes of the leviathan. He referred his companion to the words of Job xli. 18: "By his neesings a light doth shine, and his eyes are like the eyelids of the morning" (B. B. l.c.). However, in spite of his supernatural strength, the leviathan is afraid of a small worm called "kilbit", which clings to the gills of large fishes and kills them (Shab. 77b).

In a legend recorded in a Midrash called Pirke de-Rabbi Eliezer it is stated that the whale which swallowed Jonah narrowly avoided being eaten by the Leviathan, which generally eats one whale each day. Legend has it that in the banquet after the end of conflict, the carcass of the leviathan will be served as a meal, along with the behemoth and the ziz.

Source: http://www.mythicalcreaturesguide.com/page/Leviathan

]]> From the KJV book of Job

41:1 Can you draw out leviathan with an hook? or his tongue with a cord which you let down?

41:2 Can you put an hook into his nose? or bore his jaw through with a thorn?

41:3 Will he make many supplications to you? will he speak soft words to you?

41:4 Will he make a covenant with you? will you take him for a servant for ever?

41:5 Will you play with him as with a bird? or will you bind him for your maidens?

41:6 Shall the companions make a banquet of him? shall they part him among the merchants?

41:7 Can you fill his skin with barbed irons? or his head with fish spears?

41:8 Lay your hand on him, remember the battle, do no more.

41:9 Behold, the hope of him is in vain: shall not one be cast down even at the sight of him?

41:10 None is so fierce that dare stir him up: who then is able to stand before me?

41:11 Who has prevented me, that I should repay him? whatever is under the whole heaven is mine.

41:12 I will not conceal his parts, nor his power, nor his comely proportion.

41:13 Who can discover the face of his garment? or who can come to him with his double bridle?

41:14 Who can open the doors of his face? his teeth are terrible round about.

41:15 His scales are his pride, shut up together as with a close seal.

41:16 One is so near to another, that no air can come between them.

41:17 They are joined one to another, they stick together, that they cannot be sundered.

41:18 By his neesings a light does shine, and his eyes are like the eyelids of the morning.

41:19 Out of his mouth go burning lamps, and sparks of fire leap out.

41:20 Out of his nostrils goes smoke, as out of a seething pot or caldron.

41:21 His breath kindles coals, and a flame goes out of his mouth.

41:22 In his neck remains strength, and sorrow is turned into joy before him.

41:23 The flakes of his flesh are joined together: they are firm in themselves; they cannot be moved.

41:24 His heart is as firm as a stone; yes, as hard as a piece of the nether millstone.

41:25 When he raises up himself, the mighty are afraid: by reason of breakings they purify themselves.

41:26 The sword of him that lays at him cannot hold: the spear, the dart, nor the habergeon.

41:27 He esteems iron as straw, and brass as rotten wood.

41:28 The arrow cannot make him flee: sling stones are turned with him into stubble.

41:29 Darts are counted as stubble: he laughs at the shaking of a spear.

41:30 Sharp stones are under him: he spreads sharp pointed things on the mire.

41:31 He makes the deep to boil like a pot: he makes the sea like a pot of ointment.

41:32 He makes a path to shine after him; one would think the deep to be hoary.

41:33 On earth there is not his like, who is made without fear.

41:34 He beholds all high things: he is a king over all the children of pride.

Poking Shadows

2010-10-15T23:24:52Z

I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go

So, I finally got my books last week. Beginning Luciferian Magick, The Bible of the Adversary and Adversarial Light; the Magick of the Nephilim by Michael W. Ford and Pillars of Tubal Cain by Nigel Jackson and Michael Howard, and finally, The Sun at Night by Roger Williamson. I've only glanced through them, but Bible of the Adversary had some nice hymn type sections I really, really like.

Moved on to the restocking of my tools phase. I ordered a nice Renaissance Dagger Athame. Overall length is 12.5" inches long. Blade is 7.75" inches long and handle is 4.50" inches long. It's pretty. And traditional. And I like traditional.

Pretty, yes? I think so. I like that it's so plain and unassuming. I saw a picture online of a similar one and, after having perused a couple of websites selling athames but not being able to find one I liked, just knew this was exactly what I wanted and what I'd be happy with. So, there it is.

I also found a couple of veeeery nice goblets on gobletchalice.com. Unfortunately, the one I have the greatest hard on for has been discontinued and the only way I can get it is to order it from a different site and pay $100 over the retail price of $300 for it. It's called the Chalice of the Last Judgment and commemorates the archangel Michael's war against Satan. The other one I like is the Lord Byron Skull Goblet at $320. But since I don't see that happening.. do I?... runners up are the Seventh Son Goblet, the Black Death Goblet, the Seven Sins Goblet, and the Raamael Goblet which is the cheapest so far. My favorite is the Lord Byron with Black Death coming in second. Only the two most expensive goblets in the list. I don't see myself being able to buy one any time soon, but I figure if I can spend a couple of hundred on a single computer part, I can sure as shit spend it on something like this that I'll keep forever. I just have to find out if you can actually drink from them. On the other hand, *way* cheaper than the $1800 plus of the Tibetan Skull cup I saw.

I've already got a nice altar. It's an antique buffet with cabinets *and* drawers and it's a nice height and depth. It's pretty big, actually and on wheels but you can't actually see the wheels because they're hidden. I'll post a picture after I get it all together.

So, yes, that's where I'm at. Reading and gathering and reading some more. Speaking of which.. I think I'll get back to that now.

I Bleed Enough

2010-09-15T07:47:14Z

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Back to the End of Everything

2010-09-10T07:17:13Z

Another vacant heart dreams of beautiful lies
Filled with emptiness and sorrow
But no tomorrow

Nine years to the month I've had this blog. Two years to the month since I'd last posted in it. October and July used to be the months when major shifts or changes would happen in my life. Now, I'm seeing a pattern with September. So, I've been sifting through some of the old posts on here and all I can say is wow. I think it's interesting that for like.. I don't know, years I was so.. whiny. Probably the majority of my life, actually. And way *too* focused on my disabilities. I mean, yeah, a certain amount of attention is due, I think, but not every last thought. Enough of that, I'm thinkin'.

So, I'm also thinking I might move this blog to Drupal. As much as I love MT and as long as I've been using it, I'm not a fan of how complex the back end has become and how extraordinarily few themes there are for this release. I'm playing around with a test site now, so, we'll see. In the end, I'll probably end up leaving it on MT, but maybe not.

As for the blog itself, it's going to go in a new direction. I don't want to delete the past several years of my history because it's something to look back on and learn from, but I'm not in that place anymore and I don't see myself returning to it any time soon. I mean, yeah, I'm still emo, but not to the ridiculous extent that I was. I'm much more stable now. I'm still considering the direction we're going to go in and I think some restructuring is in order, but there it is. It will probably be more geared towards my creative endeavors and spiritual development.

Strange how it's been two years to the month and nearly the week since I last posted a real entry here. I was obviously not in a good place at the time. I had been back in Florida for only a couple of months after spending three years in Pennsylvania where the ex I moved up there to be with had abandoned me and my two kids. Dick. (But I'm not bitter or anything).

Anyway, that was then, this is now and the past two years have been.. well.. it was what it was and I'm still here. Being that the Broken Dreams blog, the history it contains and the person I was when I was maintaining it all those years is no longer relevant/no longer exists, I've moved it here. If you want to waste days of your life that you will never get back getting to know who I was, more power to you.

We all fucking bleed so just let it go

For several years, I haven't been anywhere near a book on the occult. I haven't really read anything at all, in fact, that wasn't school related or on the web. I've been out of school for a few years now. I did finally get on disability and when I moved down here, my daughter stayed up north to finish her senior year. She still lives there. I have been living with my best friend of twenty two years and her twin 8 year old boys. Over the past couple of days, however, I've been feeling the need to pick up where I left off on my spiritual studies. To that end, I've ordered the Pillars of Tubal Cain and joined The Luciferian Research Society. I've also subscribed to Michael W. Ford's YouTube channel. I'm also perusing websites and making a list of items I need to order to set up the room we've set aside to be a ritual room.